Today Angel and I have undertaken the job of replacing our old carpet with new laminate wood flooring. When we moved into our house 10 years ago we knew the carpet needed to be replaced but we waited till the kids were older, figuring they would just spill and drop stuff on the new floor if we replaced it while they were young.
Being the penny pincher I am, I didn’t want to pay the outrageous fees that the flooring company wanted to charge us for installation. Angel said we could do it ourselves, so here we are.
If you have never done it, pulling up old carpet will make you feel like you are the most disgusting people ever, no matter how much vacuuming you do. So much dust and filth. Yuck. I know Angel takes good care of the house, so really it’s all the years of stuff that settled through the carpet, or really just the pad breaking down.
I can be a rather difficult person to work with on home repair projects or assembly projects. I get frustrated very easily when things don’t go together as easily as they do in my mind. After cutting two boards wrong, and this was on the first row, expletives starting flying out of my mouth. I do not curse at home. I don’t like anyone to curse at home so if I was cussing, I was angry lol.
Angel always has a way of being able to calm me down and talk me through a problem. She is rather smart and handy herself so she was able to talk me off the ledge, so to speak. No one else really can do that for me. They tend to frustrate me even more.
Thank you Angel for putting up with my crap and for helping today so we can make the house better. Thank you for all the things you do.
Do you have submissive desires or fantasies that you have yet to be able to explore?
Do some of your desires confuse or frighten you? Do they excite you?
I do have a desire to be the at home slave ready for Daddy at any moment. To be naked. Collared and ready all day. I want to be kneeling for Daddy always.
Because we have kids living at the house that isn’t doable. But when they have been away it is how we have spent our time.
My darker desire is to be a toy for Daddy to show off. To serve and please whom He tells me to. How He tells me too. To make Daddy proud by being His good slut.
This is what I try to do every day:
Protect you and love you.
Recently I have failed miserably. There can be many excuses why. I have been working 12-16 hour days and going on 10 days in a row. Mentally and physically exhausted. Pressure from bosses and life. You name it.
What the truth really is, is that’s I’ve failed. My job is to provide the support and protection no matter what. Life doesn’t wait for me to have a good day or be prepared. It throws at you whatever it wants. I just need to be better prepared.
I’m sorry I have been lacking Baby girl. I’m sorry I have not been a better daddy for you. You are what is most important. I love you.